Oh my gosh, this is not my self, not me, not my self, not me..!!
An alien... !!! so stupid.,
my weight now is about 58, arrggh, wad a hell .... !!!
It supposed to be 54 or 53 and i've to be taller again, now imma 165 166 maybe 167.. !!
and now i'm on diet program, i'd think it's lil bit scary and make me sick, i felt hungry but i can't eat, sometimes it's gonna killing me inside my heart, soul, body, and now my stomach is sick it's called " Maag "
i don't know that in english, i've bad in maag, and almost killed my self, because maag, but tomorrow i promise i'm gonna eat..
sometimes when my boyfriend asked me " have you eat something for dinner " why he have to do that...??
yeah i know maybe he just care of me, but CRAP i said that stuff always " I'm on diet " why he have to asked the same question over and over again...??
well, boys don't know anything about skinnier and have a perfect body, well i'm not obsessed about that perfect body, i just felt my fat is overweight, and i've to make it right, from now.. Knock knock knock... !!!
well, figure it out, sometimes it's really hard and i almost kill and cry because my fat - my bad fat...
Well, all about size " exactly i'm 12 or 14 or maybe 16 " you know that supposed to be i'm in 8 -
sometimes i felt my thigh is so huge, and i'm gonna make it more smaller...!!!
Well, i've to lose my weight at least 4 kg's or 5 kg's..
wish me luck..
Amor de mi * ayza
