i don't know, how many times i was cry,
and i don't know how many times, i need someone to understand me...
I miss my mom, i want my mom, i wanna my mom's listening about my feelings, make me calm or feeling more better, and now i was lost everything...
i just wanna say that, i know, human being have so many problems, or different problem, but... i think it's not fair for me, well i don't know..
ALLAH may love me, maybe ALLAH gave more problems to look at me, how strongest i am? how patient i am? but... i don't know...
well, so many thought that i'm thinking about, and that's makes me blame my self,
i just, i just, need to be relax, tomorrow is a big day or last day for iNAction Bengkel Psychology birthday, and people forget about me, i think... !! because, when i asked about, what should i do tomorrow, their just said "err, oh yeah, you can pull the people, to come for our show" while the others have a big responsibility,
what should i do? do i've been forgotten? no... !! do i've to come? i really don't wanna come, but it's too late now, i think that i'm not coming, maybe i become their enemies, or maybe they think that i'm too childish, well i have so many reason to prove, why i did this? i need some answer, but until now, i can't find it.... !!
share the tears, that's not meaning anything, do i've to come?
mom. i need you... i really need you...
they were break my hearts, but i don't know where i've to go, and now i'm so so lost, so confused, and maybe their blaming me... what should i do mom?
i don't wanna make your problems more bigger because of me, but i really felt lost, i need someone to listen to me, but i guess, i don't have one..
yeah, because i don't have one,
and when i wake up tomorrow, do i've to forget it? or? what should i do mom? i really need you, do you hear me? do you feel my feelings, your my mom? i hope you are fine with dad,
and now, i'm so so lost, i need an answer for tomorrow, please...!!! give me one....
amin, i know i'm too sensitive, but is that wrong? did i? i think they are saying "yes, you are"
but i need a body to hug me tight, i need shoulders to cry...
i need that, i need that....
please, ya Rabb, your the one who knows about me, your the creature, please help me to fight this feeling, and give me more patient, and i will do that with smiling face...
please, help me to through this problem...
i know i can do it...
but for now, i need an answer, please.. give me one... !!
amin ya allah
