Maybe, i should stop..
just maybe, this is our one month, we ain't talk anymore..
i miss the moment when he used to ask me where i'am, or just asking how am i ?
or maybe...
he tell me that he really in a deep satisfaction tonight, or just doing another stuff..
Just maybe, i should stop, maybe he did HATE me? or maybe he do HATE me.
last memory just making me feeling guilty and looks like an asshole,
Maybe, he need space, or me need space..
After they told me that 'HE REJECTED ME' wow ! i mean that's so text able in my heart,
Ok, my bad. i do made mistake, i guess my life never be full of color,
how i explain tonight what i'm feeling, it is MI-ed up, like anger, sadness, givin up, and tears..
i feel like horrible, i don't know how to explain, it's just i'm tired complaining my life to god, because it is my fault, and because of me HE LEFT me, and HE HATE me, because of me EVERYTHING has CHANGE..
nothing to do with GOD, and i've heard he mention someone's name last night when we met, MAYBE he loved her, yeah..
you know Ay, you JUST RUINED your DAY, i mean, such a girl who expect you can lived in world full with FANTASY, but when GOD give you, YOU JUST RUINED it, you SUCKS !!
you and your whole LIFE screw you..
and when you ruined everything, you complaining you never get a BEAUTIFUL LIFE, what was that ? huh? creepy...
it's full with pain, MAYBE i should let him go because of my words, yeah ! i said that, and MAYBE he think that i'm a WHORE, what did you do you stupid, you just ruined your beautiful life....
you said that you had plans to get everything that's gonna make you happy, but when you almost get it.
you SCREW it all, what's your lucky? i mean, did you LUCKY ??
NO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and now, you have to moved on, show the world that you can smile, even your heart is really broken, even you still worried about what will happened between you and him ? you still giving a smile, like you said, "I'm OK" but you do not ok, and the truth you need him to hug you and say "hey, that's fine" but you had lost your CHANCE, because of you and your stupid words,
what are you thinking those last night ? huh ? do you think when you said that he'll love you more, you SHOULD think before you talk ay,, now EVERYTHING has change "CONGRATULATION"
you've made it horrible and worst,
like i said, nothing is change until now, one month and yep ! you ain't talk anymore,
now you gonna said "I'm going to smile, even i'm still worried about him, i'm going smile, even they see i always laugh, but my heart is really broken, and i'm getting let him go, even your heart don't wanna him to go" yeah..
your right, it's not about you, but it's about THE FACT you have to FACED IT ~
just because of you and YOUR STUPID WORDS, congratulation....
