About two days ago, we've been talking about something not good enough for me exactly,
well, it was me, i was started the conversation badly, and then he let it out to me...
the point is now, maybe we're done (for a while) i hope so, and i'm gonna change my self, step by step and then for being more mature, its for my kindness exactly, i'm really tired with the childish thingy so i guess i ahve to start for being mature now, and then need to fix my self...
God let me pass this problem, its so annoying me, but i know its for my lesson in another life with him (i hope so) would you give me a second chance? god....Please O:)
i hope you give it to me, but when there's a time i've to lose him, then i will accept it sincerely, even i wanna be with him for everlasting love, but i don't know, i just miss him so much, cause now this afternoon, his family was here in our home stay, it is so shocking me like me and my friend was just talking about them and then they showed up to our home stay, cause of his dad was doing a laser thingy for his eyes, but shortly thereafter they came down after they came from nikky's room, here they go with a few huge suitcase and backpack, but all i can do is saw him from my super huge window, that he's going back to his hometown, so here i come with the desperate mind, well i'm not crying exactly but i'm feel so gloomy today, its just there's no good view in my home stay, and my heart feel so empty
but i tried to be patient, and then try to be strong, tough, and i'm not gonna giving up in my condition, i'm going to pass it, i believe, sigh* even its hurting me, but i believe i'm going to do anything to be better than before...
Just wish me luck for everything, <3
Love ~ Zara Nick xoxo
