I miss him, miss him, miss him, miss him so much..
i'm willingly sleep late cause hoping that imma gonna see him even its for a while, like he's coming to my room or have a quick conversation...
Its been over a month since we broke up, but still, there's a lot of love that i keep inside my heart, he said that he's not gonna be in a relationship for a while yet ~ its tearing me apart, like a thunder light in the middle of the sunny day when i heard that, and when i choose to stay away from him while keep thinking about what exactly have been going on,
with this accident, actually God maybe testing about my patience and saw me something important, like being mature or throwing away my bad manners in my relationship before,
it was my fault, cause if o'm not to over react about my childish manner, he would never got bored with me and we're gonna be the happiest couple ever,
why am i thinking about those stuff, while we were not together anymore, its so making me feel guilty, i was just afraid of the risk, the things we've been through, the good memories we've shared and had, the laugh, hugs, kiss, its just made me missing him a lot, so much, i still had a butterfly thingy when i saw him, or feeling so embraced when i saw him, we both just like a strangers outside, i mean its like we saw each other, but didn't say hello each other, its so weird, but when here i come with a thought that "he's gonna forget me, or he's gonna stop loving me" he came to my room, give a little bit shit of me, and then when he thought that those is enough, he's gone again, and then can came to my room in the next few days or week,
exactly when people heard about my story, they thought that maybe the evil is my boyfriend, but maybe its not, cause we don't know whats inside his mind exactly, and we don't know what was he's thinking about, or what was exactly he's gonna do, he didn't bad at all, he's not the bad guy at all, in fact maybe he's making me be more mature as long as we were separated,
its hurt for me, but there might be a good side of it..
I still love him, from yesterday, tomorrow, or the day after and forever
i will keep trying even people said i'm stupid, i don't care because they don't know what exactly i've been through from the very beginning i knew him until we became a couple, thats really a long story to do, and a lot of tears i gave it, but it doesn't matter cause i love him so much <3
love ZaraNick ~ xoxo ~
