I really love to tell you about everything now, start with ~ finally he came into my room again, and again...
People told me, especially my friend, they told me that he's just cheating on me, i mean not cheating like he have a new girlfriend or playing like i'm a toy, mostly they told me me like he don't wanna lose a fans, and i'm his fans, so its kinda made me thinking twice, especially when he came to my room, he said missing me but and then he go again, and then he can come again in few more days, and then disappear again, and then when i send him a bbm, i mean like talking in chat, he's just answering like really cold, but sometimes i think you are the one whose have a childish manner, and then you told me that i'm the one whose owned that,
sometimes its so unfair, you dumped me i really wanna go, but then i realize my heart can't stop doing that, so its just about my emotions with you and then i remember the good stuff, and then being mature or being childish, its so boring, made me sick, too tired and then here i go.......... I'M GIVE UP !!!!
Why people can say that they are so understand about what i'm feeling but an then hurt me so bad, judge me, giving a suggestion and then disappear, and then come again, its just making me confused,
should be i'm the one whose deciding where should i go, and i should make a decision, so i can choose wisely, but its a hard thing to do, remember the effect for me after that..
i feel that i need to do a revenge, but until now i didn't have any ideas, or what should i do, that's disappointing
i don't now what exactly my point writing this blog now, i guess its useless, i'm so confused of what exactly i want at this point, its a things or stuff to do...
love zara nick ~ xoxo
