HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME and here i am..
I mean my birthday's come and its so fucked up, hahaaa.. like 30oct and WELCOME Halloween <3 font="font">
you know my brain is not in my head, like i don't even know what am thinking about, my feeling's blue, yeah and its like full of shit.. hahaaaa
Supposed to be am chill with this you know, am 19 y.o (almost) hahaa and need to be mature and la la la la la all of the mature thingy, oh my god i'm just entertaining my self, like i'm forever alone, ~___~"
its not forever alone, i don't know what should i say about this, but i just wanna spend my birthday with you know someone special and supposed to be romantic, full with cuddling, kissing or special things, but i didn't find it yet, even with the last person, i mean how could this shit happened to me?! i wanna spend it with someone well its officially Mr.N but since he's not my one and only, and not available anymore i wanna spend it with my self *and that's why i love my self* EVEN MORE...
Last year, my last birthday was fun you know when we were so in love and la la la... but times moving so fast, and shit happened and every thing's change and BAM....!! its not the same, driving me crazy huh?! SO CRAZY i guess.. Like my brain's coming out from my head, and my heart stop beating, like totally can't move on so easily from this situation, even i'm laughing out loud on the side, like being strong but weak inside..
But hey....!! they said that all i have to do is moving on, but its just not easy, y'all can say that or whatever, just being me is the hard thing to do..
Sometimes i pray to god, say thankful for my life, and its just still full of shit, well that's life..
But this is what i'm saying, like this time..
"My Prophet GOD, thanks for giving me such a life, sometimes i found it hard, and sometimes i found it beautiful, but thanks for giving me a lot of good people like MOMDAD, BEST FRIENDS, and BOYFRIEND (which is someday) hahahaa, you already know GOD that i still care about him, and still want him, still love him, but all i can do is being quite and moving on, being strong, accept the reality and all the shit. also i wanna pray for my momdad gave em happiness, like i'm sorry for not being such a - good - daughter but someday i will be, keep em safe, healthy, full with joy and happiness, and thanks for giving me a lot of beautiful friends and best friends i'll appreciate it a lot, and thanks for giving me an enemy hahaa, if i have one or more :p and also the whole people who love me which is i can't write it one by one here, but i still say thanks to you for my life, for the breath, for every things that maybe its more precious that i thought, its just a thankful feeling of mine" i guess its enough because i should make my own record if i write it too long..
And this is my wish
Make my self more happier like, more wiser and mature, pretty and can understand or love for who am, because the smile on my face is the happiest thing ever on my life. Well, i guess that's all and..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR YOU DEAR ME a.ka WAHYU ZAHRA AZHALEA PRATIWI,
Love ME <3 a="a" day="day" dear..="dear.." enjoy="enjoy" happiness="happiness" i="i" lot="lot" of="of" with="with" your="your">
Oh yeah and HAPPY HALLOWEEN y'all ~ Keep rocking with the scream and creepy things LOL <3 i="i">