March 14, 2013

Pendulum of The Mind

“The pendulum of the mind oscillates between sense and nonsense, not between right and wrong.” 
 C.G. Jung

“As a child I felt myself to be alone, and I am still, because I know things and must hint at things which others apparently know nothing of, and for the most part do not want to know.” 
 C.G. Jung, Memories, Dreams, Reflections

So i'll discuss about yesterday, when i've had my first time doing an Inventory test called 
"Beck Depression Inventory"
which is i know exactly in what level i'am and i did do the test with lil bit faking, but then i change it again, so my total score is 17 and it means i'm a "Mild Moderate" haha

And lately i know that my self is an "Introvert person" well while people said to me that i'm an Extrovert i kinda didn't believe that, i already doing a lot research as long as i lived, and i knew exactly about me, my self and who am i, i ended up in my room, doing everything but just in my room, without people and i kinda didn't like it, when people come into my private space and dong everything in my room, i used to did that, but suddenly my mind told me something, i felt like "Damn! they come into my private area, and i can't let it out my sting" friendship excuses *sigh* i found my self more comfortable when i'm alone, turning off the lamp, and listen to some instrumental music or kinda bit dramatic and thinking about everything with my feelings, thinking about some particular events that happened in my life, and suddenly ended up with tears. 

I also love when i'm being weird in my own room, like being crazy all the time without people knowing it, like singing out loud and pretending that i'm cursing people with that song, or playing a part of drama where i'm being the main role, and also pretend that i'm a part of that song, so i can let it out my emotion from those songs. i'm not ashamed with that, i'm proud of my self, i'm proud of being weird all the time, and i'm not rejecting or denial about it. So for all of you as my faithful reader, please don't be ashamed with who you are.

“Whatever is rejected from the self, appears in the world as an event.”
― C.G. Jung


“Mistakes are, after all, the foundations of truth, and if a man does not know what a thing is, it is at least an increase in knowledge if he knows what it is not. ”
― C.G. Jung


“We are such stuff as dreams are made on, and our little life is rounded with a sleep.” 
 William Shakespeare, The Tempest

And i also a sensitive person, like i always thinking anything with my emotion, feelings i guess there's a huge bond in my self with these, i'm curious with human fantasy, dream meaning, human characteristic, personality, even human disorder, sometimes when i found my self down and start to believe that i have some disorder, kinda makes me feel so awesome and cool you know, but throw it away 
(don't think so) 


“If a person loves only one other person and is indifferent to all others, his love is not love but a symbiotic attachment, or an enlarged egotism.”
― Erich Fromm


“Sensation tell us a thing is.
Thinking tell us what it is this thing is.
Feeling tells us what this thing is to us.” 
 C.G. Jung

"When i read those quotes (above) i remember about someone, its me exactly is that true? i don't know, but of coursed there one named mentioned in my head when i read this quotes, should i mentioned it? in here?" - nah! forget it...


“We're always contradicting ourselves.
We want people to tell us apart.......
yet we don't want them to be able to.
We want people to get to know us......
but we also want them to keep their distance.
We've always longed for someone to accept us...
But we never believed there'd be anyone who would accept our twisted ways.
That's why we'll stay locked up tight......
in our own little private world......
and throw away the key, so that no one can ever hurt us.”