What are you gonna do, when you're stuck in this kinda situation??
When you admitted something stupid, just because you wanted an apologize and you wanted everything to be fine. But you didn't even think about the risk?? such a clumsy girl
And now you just sit there and hoping for a miracle, but nothing happened (yet)
You're in the middle of a crisis about what are you gonna do now with your relationship.
You're not even sure anymore.
You learned about one thing "Don't sweat the small stuff"
While your partner lovey-dovey thingie is on a highest level with you.
Yes! I screwed up a lot of things, including my romantic life.
I didn't mean it, i mean when i said this "stupid things" all i can imagine was i want him to forgive me,
And i thought when i said that, he'll forgive and forget.
Oh Mr. Not So Fast. In fact that is not an easy things to do tho! (for him)
Doing nothing in you room, while usually you and your partner is having fun together,
being crazy together doing a lot of stupid things together.
And now you just sit here facing your macbook with your stupid pajamas while your television is on and playing a lot of romantic movies.
But you're struggling and suffering (again), you're in the middle of "Over-thinking Mood is On"
How can i get over with this kind of feeling?? Tell me what am i supposed to do??
Its like back again to my old habit, wondering, guessing, getting anxious with everything.
But this is worst than before. Letting out my epinephrine hormone for hundred times, oh no! million times tho!
How can i forget such a feeling??
I really really over think about everything, especially this one
And it kills me
How could you spend your days alone, while usually you always being together with your partner like 24 hours not stop.
How could you live your life, while every seconds of your life he always stand there besides you, saying how perfect you are.
Saying that he wants to be with you, and He's fight for you
And it just blew away with your stupid statement
How can you get out, while your brain wants to stay??
This kinda situation, reminds me of someone...
A very strong woman, actually a strong character that came out from a fictional movie
Carrie Bradshaw
Since i watched this movie, it just clicked like that, no need to understand each other
With only one day, even an hour
I just love the idea of her character
especially the idea of being her
Seeing her character on the movie, just like watching my self
with a bit of milk in the middle of gloomy weather in the afternoon
And that day i decided to sometimes change my perspective to be like her
Not to be "her" literally
But maybe just the way she thinks about love and life
I'm hoping everything will be fine right now.
I'm hoping that he'll be back to me and realize that i'm not kind of that woman.
Someone told me that i have to think everything in a positive way, so every things will be better.
Its a hard things to do,
but would you fight for someone that makes you like who you are??
Would you fight for someone you love??
Would you fight for someone who makes and treats you like a queen??
You know the answer i guess
A problem came to your life is a thing to solve
So you have to fix every problem so you'll know your end of story...
Loves
- A