And your stuck for like couple hours, maybe more, then when you're really want to burst your tears unfortunately you just can't, you just sit there feeling hopeless
That negative feeling suddenly popped up through your mind then make you feel really worthless...
That negative epinephrine hormone running goes through your vein and blood, just like a parasite living underneath your skin
There's something you can't explain to others, you can say it out loud but still means nothing when nobody can feel it. Even yourself can't escape from this one. That'll make me turn back to the old times when i can feel happiness without feeling anxious
You run away because you want someone to save you
You tried to went away because you want someone to find you
You tried to disappear because you want someone to looking for you
What's good is a love song without the love?
That feeling when you see anybody else have somebody to rely on, but you just sit there feeling worthless
I know having someone supposed to be fun, caring, loving. I did feel that by the way, but only for two seconds.
This circumstances just make you strung out and acting a lil bit hazy also confuse.
When you facing another problems you want someone to be there, cheer you up so at least you did not feel alone or worthless
You know what? My biggest dream is talk about anything with you, making you not only my boy friend but also making you as a Family or Best Man, but just like i said this circumstances slows and breaks me down. According to my position, aware of my self awareness i do not want to make this hard on you. Ugh! its just my another feeling for both of us.
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Oh, and by the way. This is running away from the Topic
Let's say i'm too tired to think about anything right now
So let's discuss about my mystical sources
The Moon
I like the idea of The Power of The Moon
How can something
so damaged
so unknown
so distant
but so beautiful
Just like the moon, part of me always hidden
You're always haunted by the idea that you're wasting your life
" I love you at your darkest "
Just like the moon, so lonely so full of imperfections. But just like the moon always shine in the darkness
Dear you, please don't lost the moon while you're counting the stars