August 21, 2016

Nisi in Defectum

Nothing but a Failure


Have you ever felt like you're state of mind in the middle of nowhere?
not on earth, or heaven.
You felt like you don't belong to no one
Not even every single person on earth

I know that i couldn't blame anybody / my life.
Well, it's only my self to blame.
It's more like my fault.
I failed

Have you ever seen yourself like a mess?
A total mess?
Even you can't fix yourself
You're the one who sees yourself a mess, including inner circle of your life.

The type of "need someone to save you" not in a material way, 
But more like "save my psychologist way" 
To be honest, "Invidia" eating me slowly followed by "Ira, Avaritia & luxuria"
But i just feel lost, terribly lost
There's a story behind it and it always begin with

Once upon a time...

There's a girl sitting facing the sea 
She wants to run away from something that could eat her alive
She doesn't even know where to go & She doesn't even know how to get home
And there's a reason why she's like to be alone

In the middle of her confusedness 
She starts to think, silence means everything, full of mystery 
And no one can speak as loud as her mind

She just wanted to be saved