Been counting the days, and almost 2 weeks on sunday, *sighs*
i'm not denied it, i just miss him so much, his jokes, hugs, laugh, smile, body, smell, face, care ~
but we are just like strangers now exactly, but one thing that confusing me, he's came 2 days ago and suddenly hug me tight, and maybe we had a little bit conversation and he just still confusing me, just like he's zodiac `..
well, its not about the zodiac, not at all, but i don't know why i always thinks that anything related with the zodiac, i believe it cause i have the evidence, like two people acting just like him, same thing yeah and its related with the zodiac, what am i thinking exactly??
the fact is we aren't together for a while, sounds better that broke up thingy or whatever it is,
and the hard things to do is :
~ when i wake up, there's just a pillow besides me, then eating alone, the room is so quiet, and can't even hear any voices, when its raining we used to be together, but now just different, i don't know, its just different things, different circumstances without him..
all by my self now, first thing i've got this problem, its really annoying, confusing, boring, make me so gloomy and no passion, but i realize that i shouldn't be sad, i mean i want to waiting but with passion not with a lot f sadness in my face, moreover i don't wanna people saw me as weak girl, or judge me i'm weak, i'm strong, so i put those smile in my face, keep walking straight.....
but it still hard to do, i did in this condition once, but different case, and its happened for one month, and then we are back again, but its still different condition, so i guess now is the time to let him self alone and still doing my business or making my self busy and don't ever think about anything, i know its hard to do, but i believe i can do this again for one more time, see?? when he didn't talk to me last year for one month, i can get through anything, i can do all the stuff, even in my heart still want him, even i still curious about him, but i can do it, so i guess this time i can pass it again...
God i love him anyway, you know that, so i just wish that he can back to me and we doing anything just like we used to...
love ~ ZaraNick <3
