Its a beautiful things, very touchy, classic and dramatic, how i watched my self fall in love..
How i curious about why the memories won't go away, and why the memories stay in my line.
I remember how it feels, i remember those butterflies in my stomach, i remember the laugh, even the tears or the pain, i remember all those things, they stuck in my head, how things and my world turning upside down because of you, i smiled every day, the smell is sweet, my blue's blossom, the sky is so bright along my day, all i think is about it. And how's my life change for 360 degrees.
I started to think about it, like almost everyday, got curious for some little things, got worried too much, got a lot of over react action, and laugh for a lot of particular reason even a small things. I talked to my self so much, i wrote down my feelings, i remember every single day for what happened at the time. And i try a little bit harder to get inside those world, i took a risk took the pain, almost there and it was changed suddenly for one reason, my blue's withered for the first time i've got my pain from you, suddenly the skies turn into dark, i can't get through my day anymore, for few days i felt like losing my soul. I still waiting day by day, still thinking about it.
Then it changed again, i got curious it was so fast, and thank God of it, how i get my smile again because of you, when i already reach you my day is getting so much better, really better. I felt like the happiest person in the world, i felt like i can be my self when i got you, when i was tired when i was mad when i was sad, you just came to me and removing all the sadness, and then i felt like happy again, still the happiest person in the world. How you tried to change my day to getting better, i just love you so much, and i feel my heart so peacefully, i just don't wanna lose you, i just want to keep you, the laughter was so special, the perfect moment, when the sadness come you did anything to make me happy again, i just remember how happy you were when you tease me, how sad you were when i left you that day when i was coming back to my home town, so we were separated for few weeks, but you just keep waiting, i saw someone really tough on the outside but have a beautiful heart inside, it was touchy, i remember you made cried when we're doing those chat, i thought that it'll be last forever, like i found someone so special, you love for who i'm, you made me believe that there's still hope in my love life, you made me believe in those pain either, you are exist for me, for my whole life, until the pain was come to me, and i have to felt that. i was cried almost every night, when you came to me and said something. its a broken vow.
How i watched my day turned into gray again, my blue was withered once again, i watched it fade away day by day, but even i said that, i was lied to my self, i will never meet someone like you, someone who makes me feel so loved, so loved, and someone who can throw me away easily either, i try so hard to get you back, but. if its just me the one who tried all of it is useless, i watched you move on so easy, leaving my behind and then somehow you still try to reach me again, for a second i thought that it will be easy, but i fall to deep, i hurt my self again and you didn't notice that, you still walked away, even now.. you're still the one who catch my eyes, i still the girl who believe that you're the one who will be my last, my heart still racing when i saw you, still worried when i don't see you, its just came from my heart, i cried every night praying that you'll be alright, you'll change, maybe i prayed to much, and i know you didn't know that, when i told you, maybe you didn't heard what am saying. but that's ok, i understand that human made mistake. every time i try to mad at you, it wouldn't work properly, so here i am, sitting and quiet, try to telling you something.
I know, maybe i already said these things, like a lot, but i really miss you, i love you so much, loving you a suicide but that's ok, i guess its not wrong, its just my feeling, so i don't wanna denied it, that i love you so..
But slowly i can feel its fading away, so you'll be fine without me, you will..
I love you, but you just didn't notice me anymore,
and i was just like a person who try to reach a beautiful star, can i have the sun for brightening my day? can i get the star for accompany me at night so i don't get lose once again?
