Buenas Noche
Its been really long time right, since my last post (actually its just two months), lil bit dramatic here.
First of all Happy New Year 2014 for all the bloggers. Its time for the new year new me thingy whatever. Well, hope all of you have a blast year for this horse year ( i guess ). So many things happened in my life, from tears (always) and also happiness (but i'm not sure which happiness should i write here, not even sure do i have one?) too much drama again =_="
This year gonna be my hectic year ever, cos just like what i told you in my last post, i'm gonna be busy with my internship project, and thesis maybe. Ugh! i've to fight till bleeding :"O
i guess i'm gonna work maybe at Pertamina or Krakatau Steel (these are my main goals with of course my parents intervention). First thing first i'd like to find those firm with my own effort, but suddenly when it came out from my mouth, especially when they asked me about my internship, i already told them that i found one tho, but they're not satisfied with my option, so here they go, i did not say that they are ruining, but suddenly everything in a rush, (at least thats what i feel). They want me to work in something like a developing firm, or they want me to work in a private companies, so they started to search from our colleagues, and tradaaaaaaaaaaaaa here i'm stuck in the middle of two private companies while my deadline for reporting company name its on next sunday, on 20th of january. I do not say that i'm disagree by their option, but emmmm, suddenly i feels like everything in a hurry, and my moody thingy is affecting my brain, i supposed to work in some firm with clinical background, cause those firms are my primary desire, but actually if we wanna learn about "Actual life of work" then i guess its a truth if we choose a private company, (this is just my opinion, no need to hate, no hurt feeling). But now like tonight when i'm writing my post, i just finished sending my cover letter to one of those private companies, and next tuesday i've to send my internship request letter to Standard chartered building in South Jakarta. So yes! it is already hectic since i'm not even starting my internship project. That's it for my internship i'll tell you later, if i already work in one of those private companies, alright. Just wish me luck.
So, i'm gonna tell you about my another story.
When dad's coming here, maybe one week ago. He bought me a new baby, well at the beginning i hope that my new baby is another baby, you know, you got confuse? yeah, of course you are, i'm not gonna write my "baby's" real name here. Lets say i was expecting for baby A, but unfortunately baby A isn't here yet, so with very compelled dad bought me baby B, its not dad's objection its mine exactly, i can't wait for baby A, cos i've to wait for 6 months or 7 maybe to have my own baby A, whereas my mom need my baby like right at that time, so i have this sneaky lil thought, if baby A already got here, i will give my baby B with pleasure, then ask dad to buy me a baby A (finally, its the end). But i'll work on that, so hard, haha...
Before my baby pleasure thingy, i got a very very sad news from my friend, that my old dearest junior high school friend, was died cause of stomach cancer, i can't believe that, like she was so young and we don't even know god's plan right, and after i got my baby, the next day i got a bad news, really bad news from my sister, that my lil nephew is die cause of leukemia, i can't even say any words, i guess if there's a beginning then there will be an ending. Then suddenly my whole world is crumbling, i can't come, attending my nephew's funeral but i'll pray for him, like always. You feel like you can't cry because of this lost feeling, but you wanna cry at the same time, and that makes you hard to breath, you know how i feel, when you already feel it. Its just hard to facing this reality of life. I always remember those people in my life.
This is my lil nephew, his name is Ray Imanuel Kembuan, and this photo before he do chemotherapy
And this one when he already in his coffin, I'm gonna miss you lil buddy :'(
Lets move into my another story. And this is gonna be my last story in this post cause i'll share you some of my new pics. Enjoy the ride xoxo
A simply happiness when your sister give you a yummy, velvety delicious biscuit chocolate ever, and you can't eat that because its too delicious, but i already ate them tho ;p
I see you through my eyes, and you'll stay in my heart.
P.s : if you did not mess with me
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This are my exclusive, adventurous books collection, from psychology, fiction novels, cute book notes, and much more. Cause i love books a lot.
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Haha, do not mention this one, i did this cause its actually describe how i spend my saturday night for one year since the "......" , how nerdy i'm, oh haters gonna hate. And i don't care what they say, haters actually love you, cause they are paying attention like a lot of your whole life :) :) :)
A selfie madness, when you find a mirror in front of you :D
There she is, busy with her thesis proposal, and we do have a girls night, like two days ago but tonight we spend it alone in our comfy room.
And these are my before valentine's day gift, bad collection huh, but its sexy. Every woman in the whole world should feel sexy about them self, and i'm proud of that :)
And thank you for tonight, thank you for reading my post, i love all of you of course, and see you on the post. Keep in touch with me :)
Love Azhalea Zarayu