This is my path i guess, after all the sacrifices i'm making, this is the end of my journey. Its nothing...
How i'm gonna miss everything about you, from the little thing until the big one of yours.
I'm just afraid of the risk, and now i'm gonna face it, alone.
I'm speak to god by my tears, and i believe god knows god already knows. I'm not even can call your name anymore, cannot hug you when i'm tired, can't kiss you when i'm going to sleep, can't share everything to you when i'm happy, can't be your number one, can't help you with your rain.
This is me, with all of my fragile, my world is upside down, my whole life is crumbling, my heart turning into million pieces, and maybe hard to put it back together.
I'm screaming your name, every night. i'm chocked up, i can't sleep very well, deep down in my heart i want you so bad. not even any words can describe what i feel, i'm broken hearted, i'm never thinking about losing you at the beginning, but when i feel that, it is hurt me so bad, until my heart hurts, maybe i'm still alive but i'm barely breathing, i'm pretend to be strong in front of these people, in front of you, but the fact is i'm weak, i'm craving your love, is not being stupid, its me trying to fighting for our love, our story, but you are not doing anything, unfortunately you choose to be with here, everyday and every second in your life, what am i gonna do?
biggest part of me don't want to let go, but another says that its the time to let it be, between my broken hearted i still love you like a lot until my heart hurts, still loving you when i know that you hurt me, and i still find million reason to find your kindness,
Hey, i'm totally lost without you right now, totally feel that your stabbing my heart many times. but as i told you i'm still craving for your love. your love is my own drugs :"(
Nobody knows exactly how it feels, nobody.
And now, my tears are the unspoken words for god. God knows exactly. God don't leave me please, i need you so much, i need you to hug me tight, and tell me that i'm ok. Sometimes i speak by myself
and i took some words from "The Help" movie and i said to myself "You are kind, you are sweet you are important" and i guess this situation is killing me slowly. eating my psychological physic :"(