Hi there :)
I was enjoyed my saturday night, my another lonely saturday night
Earlier today when i was shutting my self out from the world, due to the huge problems i've been facing, i was thinking about
I don't even know whom to trust anymore
Feels like want to run away, but where. The question is where...
So instead of thinking about those people whose being a hypocrite to me
I'd rather watch korean dramas
I know, i know.
I used to hate it, but hey! it was long ago.
I finally found my self loving korean dramas and funny korean variety show called
"Running man" during my glorious lonely day
( it's too late, because the episodes already 250 something while me? nah ~ don't ask. I'm at the 27 episodes ). Not really a huge fan tho, but i'd rather cheer up my self with doing stuff that i like
Even though i cried for three days ( well it was actually helping ).
After that, i still think about it.
Remember that i have this anxiety system inside my brain, that caused me feeling so insecure
when good things didn't happen. But actually and totally be fine when good things really happen.
Ugh~ and that is super kill me.
I used to hooking everything up, when good things didn't happen.
Well, mostly negative, that's why i always ended up my self overthink about anything.
I know it's too dramatic or maybe too sad.
But this is the part me that i can't never ever let it go.
And at the end,
I know that everything will be fine, even though i've to pass some phases
And i know it will be fine, but i just don't wanna trust people anymore....
